For so long I had walls built up, and then I met my husband and those walls started to come down. I know that I haven't always been the easiest to live with, but for so long I felt that it was just me against the world. The other day there was something that was posted on facebook about birthdays and March fit me right down to a tee. Until my husband said that I don't keep things bottled up anymore. Then I realized that I have become more open here lately.
Yesterday daddy and I got into it, and we are so much alike that it is not even funny! So I was so aggravated then I went walking to get rid of the aggravation. I then realized that the walls that my husband had torn down are starting to be built back up slowly. Before spring break my mom had called me lazy. Then again I have dinner waiting when she comes home, house is clean, errands are ran, laundry gets done, and other chores are done around the house, but yet I am lazy. Then yesterday daddy made it sound like I couldn't work the machine at Burger King because it was broke. (Yet I visit Firehouse Subs quite frequently). So that is where the aggravation came from in a little way. The big part was that he wanted to clean his bathroom, and I know how he is when he stands still too long. So I just let him have his bathroom and let him clean it. I came and changed clothes and then I went for my walk. There are days that I actually look forward to the time he takes a nap!
There are so many emotions that has built up and so much aggravation that it just isn't right I take it out on Robert. There are times when my mom talks more to my baby sister, they don't keep me informed of anything unless I am there, and they don't talk to me. Those things hurt because it is like growing up all over again, and having to go through these things all over again. There are so many times when I have turned to God for guidance, and even turn to HIS word to see where I need to go.
